I love a woman who speaks her mind and most of all I love her.
In the interest of keeping my promise, I will just lie here and let you do all the work."
-Devotion, by Daphne Gottlieb.
"...The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars..."
This is my journal. If you don't like what's in it, don't read it. Simple enough, no? And I'm not promising anything interesting.
"I like to challenge myself in many ways. Go from being raw and deviant to light and observational. Vulgar and blunt to eloquent and gentle. It doesn't always work but I fucking commit to it like no one you know. It's all I have so why not die by the sword right?"
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did... So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor, catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
"You can safely assume that you've created God in your own image when it turns out God hates all the same people you do."
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."
"The wise never marry, and if they marry, they become otherwise."
"If ignorance is bliss, you must be orgasmic."
Just a little something...
The name's Rochelle, but I'm not particularly fond of it. More commonly known as Cat/Catty/Kitty or RoRo. I'm Irish, and naturally a freckled pale-skinned redhead. Astrologically, I live up to my sign - Pisces - but I have strong Aries traits. I'm such a THREE when it comes to Numerology. As for the Chinese Zodiac, I was born the year of the Pig. I'm a Democrat, but that's not why I dislike George Bush. I hold strong in the following: Pro-Choice, Anti-War, Pro-Animal Rights, Pro-Womens Rights, Pro-GLBT Rights, Pro-Human Rights, Pro-Stem Cell Research, & Against the Death Penalty. That does not mean I'm a dyke-y PETA-obsessive man-hater. I very much love women and men, making me bisexual. I can't get enough of the beautiful people, no matter their gender. I'm not fond of monogamy, but I could do it if the right person came along. Currently, I'm not "official" with anybody, and I'm not particularly looking, but if it happens, it happens ... Stated nicely in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind: "I'm not a concept. Too many guys think I'm a concept or I complete them or I'm going to make them alive, but I'm just a fucked up girl who is looking for my own peace of mind. Don't assign me yours." ... In other words, while I do tend to (usually unintentionally) make peoples lives better, I'm not going to try to fix you -- I don't want your drama; I already have enough to deal with. I'm quite independent, slightly arrogant, loud, spontaneous as hell, and a bit "too much" for most people to handle. I enjoy LIFE & PEOPLE WHO LOVE TO LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!, nature, experiencing new things, making friends with strangers, and wandering aimlessly. I also adore my beautiful true friends, learning, traveling, reading, writing, photography, music, and movies. I know when to care and when not to. I love my mom, and rarely talk to my father. (His choice, not mine.) My friends are my family, and I like it that way. There are five absolutely amazing people in my life, and I believe they will be there forever. I was born in Michigan, but have lived in Florida for most of my life. I will be moving to California soon to spend more time with three loves of my life, only because two of them can't be there. I work at at a hotel, as well as the biggest motorcycle dealership in the world. I want to ride... anything, really. Which brings me to the fact that I'm a complete nymphomaniac that lives for BDSM. I'm definitely a switch, yet more dominant than submissive. Romance, to me, involves pain. Don't get me wrong, I like rose petals & candle-lit dinners as much as the next person, but nothing can beat the taste of blood and the feeling of power over someone that trusts you that much. Of course, I wouldn't have such an intense relationship with just anybody; it must be earned. Anyhow. I'm 23, so sometimes I like to drink, and I'm known as the life of most parties. I smoke a little, but only cloves - and I prefer Djarum Blacks. I don't like drugs, but I don't care if you do them. Just don't jeopardize my life or steal from me. I'm currently in school to get my AA, then I'll be moving on to a PharmD program. I'm basically an adopted mother to four of my cousins; I'd do anything for them. I drive a 2005 Honda Civic - cheap and reliable! Every girl needs to be pampered, so occasionally I go to the spa. I like high end products; especially purses (Coach, Dooney) and make up (MAC, anything from Sephora). I drink Starbucks so much that they know my name and have my order ready (chai latte with soy!) before I even pay. I work out at the gym at least four days a week, and am obsessed with Yoga, Pilates, meditation, running, and dancing. I am currently attempting to live a vegetarian lifestyle - if you have any tips, feel free to share them. I have a major spending problem; I need a financial advisor. I love tattoos and piercings. I have been inked three times and there are nine holes in my body (not including the obvious). I like nearly every genre of music. High on my list would be industrial, 80's, hip-hop, and anything with an electronic feel to it. My favorite bands from each ultimate genre are: KMFDM, PiG, Wolfsheim, Leaether Strip, Skinny Puppy, OhGr, Genitorturers, E-Craft, Hocico, Funker Vogt, Evil's Toy, Front 242, Lords of Acid, AK1200, Dieselboy, DJ Baby Anne, The Cure, Depeche Mode, Placebo, Ani Difranco, Madonna, Christina Aguilera, Three 6 Mafia, Lil Jon & the Eastside Boyz, Ying Yang Twins, Petey Pablo, Ladytron, She Wants Revenge, Death Cab for Cutie, The Faint, The Postal Service, The Dresden Dolls, Bright Eyes, HIM, AFI, Green Day, Nirvana, My Chemical Romance, and Jimmy Eat World. I'm very open, and I like opinions. If you want to know anything else, feel free to ask.
I have lived by this since the first time I heard it:
"Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99 If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proven by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.You’re not as fat as you imagine.
Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing everyday that scares you.
Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life... the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.
Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary... what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s.
Enjoy your body, use it every way you can... don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.
Dance... even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.
Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen..."
*Something semi-important that you should know ... I strongly dislike George Bush. Don't lecture me. I know "he's our president and there's nothing anyone can do about it" ... I'm on my way out of this country (in 6 years) before I have to pay the trillions of dollars of debt that he's put us in. I know, I know - sticking together is what we should be doing, but how can we do that when we live in the Divided States of America? I have morals. I believe in God. I even have an education. I stand up for what I believe in. I won't be the laughing stock of the whole world & I surely won't risk my future for a fucking idiotic monkey-cowboy and his fundamentalist puppets - sorry!*
If you have a problem with any of that, reconsider adding me. Seriously.